cold sores…

…would anyone like one? i've got 5 and am more than happy to share. five! two top lippers, two bottom lippers and a chinner! my mouth feels how I imagine Lesley Ash or Pete Burns's must have felt post lip injections. i can't work out if it is nature's way of telling me that going out and getting smashed every night and only having 5 hours sleep isn't actually funny or clever or sophisticated and that I need an early night, or whether it is trying to tell me to smile at the world, even if it is with a mouth that is scabby, that even with a bulbous labia i am a beautful and loveable human being and that i must never forget that.
i've always been partial, i mean prone, to cold sores. one year i had 23 one after the other. which was hideous. but i've been free of them for the past couple of years, which makes this outbreak all the more grim. i feel that all people see when they look at me is 'herpes simplex'. i'd make a useless elephant man.