Friday, May 25, 2007

it's my party

so, yesterday, apparently my life began. yep.
the big 4.0 (as in, oh my god, how did that happen!)
when my mother was my age she had a 20 year old and twin 16 year olds!
all i've got is a major hangover and pre-party nerves. i'm having a 'drinks do'! for about 25 friends tonight and i feel like a panicky teenager. i'm not worried that people will turn up (i know they will). i'm just terrified that my inner party animal – which i spent most of my early 30s taming – will hear about the 'event' and turn what promises to be a lovely, relaxing bank holiday weekend into one spent in the outer limits feeling totally wretched with only a massive dose of self loathing for company.
i'm seriously considering not turning up!

1 comment:

starbhanta said...

Now that you're life has officially started you'll obviously have to abandon this pathetic blogging thing as you'll be far toooo busy.

Happy Birthday. And welcome to life beyond the fear.